longer.blue

People who have discovered a way to outlet a part of themselves in art or any kind, are inclined to be as ignorant and dismissive of others trying to find their own outlet in art, or other things. I stumbled upon drums one day in highschool, had always thought it was a cool thing to do, and when I did get a semi-accessible chance to learn, I did. The environment wasn't ever inviting in particular, but I fortunately had a period in the start where my biases and tolerances were left to grow only in favour of the act, in brief: I was let immerse myself fully in it for a while, and when resistances started to come my way, I was already invested into drumming, and I just didn't let go after that; learning DAWs and beginning to make music, it seems like everything just fell into place back then, and of course it did, or I wouldn't be as devoted, at least in spirit to music as I am. The idea of people that I know forgoing the entire act of creation, or their choice to lean into other avenues of art or literature is the thing that I find myself to be in conflict with today.; of course the latter is better for a person. I found myself thinking about a person, someone that is still very new in the process of finding 'the outlet' for them. And I think they are already running late. I fully see through this worry being one that is shattered by reason, but it still is an affliction that emotionally effects me. What if the path that they are on isn't the one they should progress in? What if this path doesn't lead them to the right one? I have a lot of what ifs that don't resolve by anything but the enactment of time. So, I don't really know what to say to them, or how much to hold back; I do instinctively push them towards music, with best intentions in mind, but even looking back on that, the thought of it leading them somewhere, it's not very clear. I wonder if the reason I push music and music theory onto people in a very specific sort of way is because I want that interested to be shared in any form, it hasn't been yet, so the speculation offers some fruit for thought, and besides, this is how it has been for most people, and most things. I do some writing too, did a lot in the past year, and they seem to share that interest too, and they have asked me to help them with website stuff and github and how that works, and I'm too dismissive of that at times I'm afraid. The hardest thing is finding the right headspace to help, in a way that actually makes them learn, and progress instead of blockading off another path. I'm on the sidelines about helping them with the writing and website stuff, and I think I will implement that approach in the music side of things too. It's probably for the best that I leave the path of discovery riddled in veils for them, and progress myself, re-immerse myself in my own condition, and progress again. Lesser the expectations, the better, higher the ambition, the better.