longer.blue

I'm not gonna pretend like I know you, I barely interacted with you. All the stuff that happened in July, everyone who was there that day has non-stop apologized and was forgiven by Cinna. But seeing you bring my name into this and use me as ammo for your argument with "Trist - Whose bio reads 19 iirc which implies they were a minor in my server :v" was really off-putting and felt like a slap in the face. So I'll answer what you meant, yes I was a minor two years ago, and idk if you heard this from Cinna, but I was fucking so distraught about it for years until I came clean about it to everyone.Also about the webcam thing, I don't even remember if I said anything like that to you and Jean in the past, but if I did then I am truly sorry for saying that, I was a really dumb teenager at the time with zero self awareness. It was emotionally distressing feeling like everyone would dump me to the side because I was a stupid teenager who didn't know the right decision to stay out of adult spaces, and I haven't had a single person who I admitted it to block me, because they accepted that people can change for the better and recognizing my wrongs help me improve as a person. We have never held that day with Cosmo against her, and we all admitted privately to her that we were all insanely sorry for what we did and believed what he was doing was "the right thing" when it all went down until we were told what was really going on (Which she apparently didn't inform you about). Yesterday everyone was thinking this was over and handled and we were all exhausted about everything that had happened. You have to understand where we were coming from, how we were being told that the person who she'd be friends with for years and has constant doppelganger fears about being replaced or left to rot was essentially telling her "Those friends are fake and are going to leave you the next little outburst you have." I try my best to stay out of drama, but the moment you decided to drag my name into this is where I had to step in and defend my friend who I have known for years too (shocking, people can be friends for years too). I don't hate you at all as a person, hell I don't hate anybody in general for some reason, but I do want you to realize that I personally see you in the wrong here with my limited exposure to you and you posting about this to your audience and PINNING it to your profile to make this as publicly viewable as possible really isn't helping me change this view that I have about you. None of us fully believed that you were an "abuser", we were calling out a really deceptive manner of speaking and were really angry at the time of finding out. Nobody was ever planning on making any of this public like you have, nor were we planning on writing some extensive doc file on you. In fact, Java took the most peaceful way out of it they could have, with leaving your server and going their separate ways, like quite literally EVERYONE was going to do so. We were looking forward to the future and that we were going to feel better soon, not some elite smear campaign against you like what had happened in July, because we grew as friends and genuinely care for each other. Brushing us aside because we confronted you about something worrying without a second thought has harmed EVERYONE'S personal view about you. Even if you just "don't care if it's not 'mature' anymore" tagging her name to your pinned profile post is (even if it wasn't your intention) going to lead to her getting a shit ton of harassment thrown her way. Because 9 times out of 10, your followers don't care about some "drama" between their friends and I've seen two people just pop in the doc and instantly leave while reading it, and they'll see their favorite artist saying "this person is bad, here's their public tag" and do as they please. That isn't just something you can go "I don't care anymore" to, that's something seriously detrimental to anybody on the internet. But listen, I DID read through the doc including the childish "Post-Doc Whining" section, and I do have to say I still don't feel like I respect you for any of this. Claiming that she “never read the doc” is really bad behavior to do in a document like this. You seem to have “accidentally” left out the whole dms that Kenzi (Beetle) has sent you, seeming to not include the dms about how nobody ever flat out called you an abuser, but came off as that type of behavior. Which to point out the obvious, seems to me like you’re trying to write a narrative about yourself and leaving out crucial details to paint yourself in a better light. So if you do decide to take screenshots of these dms I advise you to include the whole thing instead of doing that. I read through your experiences and I feel like there's nothing for me to discuss about any of it that hasn't been talked about amongst us and all the past dramas that existed that we've grown from. Every past drama you've listed are things we've forgiven and apologized for and helped us strengthen our bonds as friends which you weren't around to see since you left the server. I'm sorry that all of this has happened and you are feeling exhausted over the supposed years of having to "tolerate her antics". I still do hope everything can get better for you in the future despite everything and I will never truly "hate" you as a person, because again I can never truly hate anyone unless they're a predator or something like that.