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so, the entire ofrenda itself, v's barely keeping it together. She can barely get thru her speech and wants to go puke afterwards, because going into his garage was like, multiple slaps in the face. (seeing her poster up, finding the empty bottle of tequila he saved from the night he saved from her from her revenge suicide run against arasaka, that he planned on gifting her after the heist.) so by the time she's done speaking, she's about to have a full blown panic attack. and Mama Welles is fully 100% aware of that, she can see V's struggling hard. and she actually pulls Viktor to the side and is just like "hey, make sure V gets home safely, yeah?" and Vik is kinda like. he's grieving too ofc, but this is also the first time he's even SEEN V since she woke up post heist and there's a ton of conflicting feelings on his end, but ultimately he does want her to be safe, and wants to be there for her. and so at first he's like "IIIII... don't know if she'll want to go with me." and Mama Welles is like 🤨 yeah okay anyway- let me know when ur both back safely. So, after V makes her rounds around the bar, her last stop is with Vik and they proceed to do a few shots before she immediately latches onto him to start making out and she drags him to the back for a bit of privacy, and then he's like- he's basically like "My place. Can I trust you to drive back on your bike alone? Codes the same as it always is- you know you can always come over." and she's like <a:AutismBlink:1389632785656058069> yes of course. So he goes to settle up and call a cab, and she gets on her bike to drive back to h10, and because of that she arrives first. takes her shoes off, starts to freshen up a bit and make herself at home and thats when she sees. # DA PANTIES.... (sorry its so funny to me LFSJKDFHSFROI) and Johnny ofc takes this opportunity to slide in while Valerie is staring at them, disassociating slightly and Johnny cracks some smart ass remark about how those definitely aren't V's style and she's like <:autismeyes:1354979421219459165> Yeah. Because They Are Not Mine. and she does like just, swift turn out of the bathroom and goes back to the door where her shoes are and starts putting her boots back on when Vik arrives, and he's like 🤨 Uh. Leaving So Soon? And Valerie's in full dissociative mode where she's speaking extremely calmly, and matter of factly, like Eerily so. and she's just like "Yep. I have Things to Go Do. I'm Good." and Vik's just like whoa whoa whoa- okay, what the fuck happened in the span of however long? You are clearly *not* good. and she's just like "No. I am. I'm good. But if you're not, I mean. You can have. Whoever left their panties in the bathroom come over and help you with your grieving. I'm ***Good*** Tho." And Vik's just like ??? Wtf are you TALKING about V, what panties? and initially he thinks she's confused, because while he did drop off some of her clothes she left at his house, he did keep SOME at his house still because well - he knows how she is, he knew eventually they'd be "on" again. so he kept some clothes just in case. And he tries explaining that and V's just kinda staring at nothing and is just like "Yeah, no, sorry, I don't wear that frilly shit but anyway. I Have To Go Now." and Vik just gently grabs her wrist and she just LOSES it. and starts trying to pull away, and going from crying hysterically to just outright laughing and telling him to fuck off and to go call whoever she is and she can fuck his sadness away and is he even actually SAAAAAD and starts taking really cheap shots because of the stress of the Ofrenda, of the realization setting in that Jackie is Really Truly Dead, but she's still *alive* yet again. so she breaks away and goes to the bathroom and grabs the panties and shoves them at Vik and is just like "SEE? See? Not fucking mine! But I'm happy for you! Really!!! I Am!!!!! SO HAPPY!" and then immediately breaks down again, crouched down on the floor. and Vik realizes that the woman he had over like a few days prior ago - was even Weirder than he thought, and left them behind as some weird power move. and he's trying to not be Annoyed, least of all with V, but he does have to get her attention so he doesn't YELL but he's like "V. Yeah- I brought a woman over the other night. But I didn't sleep with her. I couldn't. I hadn't heard from you for over 2 weeks, I was lonely, I missed you. And I needed something to stop my brain from thinking about all the worst outcomes. That you were dead already. That maybe you'd never come and see me again." but then he's just like, I couldn't do it though. She was weird. For one. Turns out she's a Priss fan, and she started getting weird, asking for tickets and if she could meet you. And I just- she wasn't you and I knew if I slept with her, I'd just be fucking worse off. so I called a cab for her and sent her back to her place. idk why the fuck she left her panties here, I told you - it was weird and I wish I had never had her over because it just made me miss you more, dammit. and Valerie's just hyperventilating still a bit on the floor when Vik just holds her in his arms and kisses her and eventually she just starts frantically kissing him back and they start having sex (Johnny: Fuckin Finally) and that's when Valerie's Current Manic Brain says :hehe~1: hey. hey what if we were a little Fucking Evil. and while he's not paying attention, her ass is netrunning/quickhacking his fuckin address book and finding her name & # and goes RING RING and the woman ofc picks up and is like ???? and Vik is immediately like V?? HANG IT UP? WHAT THE FUCK? And Valerie's in full blown Haha Crazy Ass Mode, and is just laughing hysterically while also, not really exaggerating her moans or anything rly because she doesn't have too (Vik Just Got That Dick.) and is just like :AutismBlink: well if you stop fucking me then yes ofc i will hang up :SCWblush: but you're ~ not ~ doing ~ that ~ (Johnny watching this is just like: Oh She Is My Type Of Freak I Must Have Her.) and the woman doesn't hang up either because well :FUCK: she's also kind of crazy, considering this winds up being the catalyst for her trying to biosculpt herself to look like V/PRISS. Eventually tho, Valerie hangs up and is just like UGHHH so boring now!!! She didn't even care!!! Do u think she-- and Vik's just like, ignoring what she's sayng, because he knows why she did it- she wanted him to get mad at her, because she's mad and angry at herself for what happened to Jackie but nobody is blaming her for that. and that's when he :AutismBlink: :cat_blush: has her go over to the couch and he spanks her, (tho before he starts he tells her, like, hey, you remember your codewords and V - I'll know if you're trying to not use them. I'm serious. I'll stop if I think you're trying to avoid them.) and once he's finished, she just kind of bursts into tears and he picks her up and takes her to bed and they just have much more intimate/softer sex together while she cries and clings to him. (and as much as Johnny was like, at first like :eyebrow_wiggle: watching this, he actually gets more....... Observant? about it. and he can see that it's extremely hard, if not outright impossible, for Valerie to allow herself to openly grieve or admit to her emotions, even to herself. And its why she picks fights the way she does. and its what kinda starts... not quite the catalyst, but the first inklings of johnny thinking to himself. "she's going to eventually self destruct the way I did. And I don't want her too. I don't want her to suffer or hurt like I did and become that jaded asshole that I became." because he can tell that this whole thing was her just Doing The Most to get a reaction from Vik. Who, thankfully, is well aware of her Being Like That, and gave her what she needed while also being there for her after, and balancing out the more... romantic aspect to it, so as to not Overwhelm her or to get her to push away. and the next morning, V's just like :AutismBlink: sorry bout last night..... and Vik's just "it's alright. I'm not mad. Not really anyway. Least I won't be, if you eat breakfast." and she's like :AutismBlink: ok i will. and they still leave a LOT unsaid, because V's just not in a mental state to delve into things between them, but she is just like "sorry im such a mess lol! 🤪 " and he's just like "yeah well it's been however many years? It's fine. If I wanted to throw in the towel, I'dve done it way earlier." and just makes her promise to not ghost on him. and Johnny is just like, once she leaves he's immediately ON her ass like "So. We gonna talk about what happened last night." and she's like "What? Feeling weird cos you got turned on or something????" and he's just like :FUCK: fuck you. no. (yes. but he won't admit to THAT just yet.) and they have one of their first like. personal heart to hearts that doesn't involve like Johnny ranting about Corpos