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On Monday, April 20th, I got phone call from my doctor's office, after playing phone tag for a week. She asked me if I got results to a procedure I had done last month in March. I said, I had gotten results, but apparently it was not for everything that was done that day. The only results I had gotten was for the pap I did, that said I don't have HPV, but there were atypical cells found, but that could mean anything, from inflammation and infection to cancer. I had been dealing with abnormal bleeding for months, seeing doctor after doctor, ultrasounds, all the things. To even doctors trying to get me on weight management medication. Nothing was stopping the bleeding though. Yes, I know weight is a factor, but shouldn't we be more concerned about stopping the bleeding I am dealing with than me being fat??? That is what I kept thinking. I would have several days in a month where I could not function properly, where I would be bleeding for hours on end, pad after pad being flooded, looking like a murder scene, a massacre, (that is really gross to say, but it was also really gross to see). They were trying to get me on GLP-1s, which yeah, I would love to manage my weight, I have been overweight my entire life, but that is not something I can afford right now, I need answers to what I am currently dealing with. I went to our good ol' friend Google, and started learning more about endometrial hyperplasia, and I was wondering if I should be tested for that. It just made sense, a lot of bleeding, my body not having the right hormones. My mother suggested I should do a biopsy, which is never a word that someone wants to hear, but with endometrial hyperplasia, it can be benign or it can be cancerous, so it made sense. I talked to my doctor if I should get a biopsy, this was the doctor I was talking to about the GLP-1, and she said it was "not unreasonable" to get a biopsy. Which did make me giggle, "not unreasonable" like yeah, you could, you don't gotta, but sure. Well, it is a good thing I did. In March, I had a lot done in just one day, in the matter of minutes. Well first, I learned that I had PCOS, which god damn it, why did no one tell me this earlier??? I had been tested for it several times, but no one said anything, and this doctor was like, "yeah those are PCOS ovaries" Okay, thanks. And then everything happened, I got a pap smear, a biopsy, and also for extra precaution, a Mirena IUD. Oh yeah, also a transvaginal ultrasound after that. It hurt, but my doctor said "you are a superstar, most people would have been yelling and cursing." Yeah it hurt, but breathing through it helped. We fast forward a month later, to my results to that biopsy. Apparently my doctor's office had to call to get the results, because they hadn't given it yet, like okay? That is weird, but that is the medical system for ya. Which kinda sucks, because the results were "not great" which is how my doctor presented it. The abnormal bleeding, the sick days, just pure exhaustion I would feel Yeah it is cancer I got uterine cancer That is weird to write But I do It is there I reacted with, "OH! well, alright" because how in the world are you supposed to react to that? Like, honestly, yes it is hella scary, but it was also kinda always in the air? Like how else do you explain everything I have been going through? It isn't too too common for a 30 year old to have it, but it does, it can happen. I have been dealing with a fucked up uterus since I was 16 years old. Irregular periods, abnormal bleeding, pain, birth control (that I got blood clots from), now knowing I have PCOS, and to put the cherry on top, uterine cancer! I know that is a lot to take it, but my doctor reassured me that this is treatable, we are still in very early stages, even to the point of that I might not even have to have a hysterectomy. I will probably have to at some point, but since I am young, and I still want to have kids, there are other options right now. But I am already on medications that treat this kind of thing. I am on Metformin and I have the Medina IUD. That is already a start to getting better. I already have a referral to see a gynecological oncologist to discuss more about options and what I will be going through. But yeah, so if you have been wondering why I have been missing, the random stream days I have skipped, some days just feeling just so bad. It is that. My doctor said it was a very good idea to get the biopsy, because a lot of people my age would be like "nah, it is fine, it can't be cancer" No, if something is going on with your body, you don't feel quite right, it is always a good idea to get checked. If I could handle a biopsy in my freaking cervix, you can get that mole or lump or whatever checked out. It is scary, but knowing is better than not knowing. I am not worried, I am a little scared, but I know I have a big support system behind me. I am so grateful to have people understanding me, supporting me, and those who take care of me, thank you so much. Everyone that has been checking in on me for the last week whilst I have tried to process all this information, thank you. Even though I am going through something that is very unlucky right now, I feel very lucky to have a community that supports me. I love you all so much, Stay Safe and Stay Sweet 💖