longer.blue

Long(ish) post warning — I’m gonna talk about some stuff that’s been on my mind for a bit, and I wanted to talk about so it can be heard. Also, this is my first time trying something like this. I’m gonna start with a little self-blabbing about a gripe I’ve had using Bluesky. (Feel free to skip past these first two paragraphs. I really hope more people read what comes after at least, including you nice few followers. Which is honestly more than I expected lol, not that I mind.) Tbh, I really need to use this site more. I still kind of struggle with the same mental issues I had on Twitter and (less so with) Discord — not because Bluesky has those problems, but because I’m weird like that. This site is infinitely better than both. I just awkwardly forget about it sometimes and don’t stay as consistently active as I want to. It sucks more because as awful as Twitter is, it does feel more “alive” at times, even though it’s infinitely worse for me to use. On a more positive note, I’ve found relevantly way more meaningful engagement here, which is really nice, especially compared to Twitter. Bluesky is nowhere near as suffocatingly toxic, or full of slop like that burning landfill over there. It’s also pretty charming how much smaller, quieter, and more relaxed it feels. ------------------------------------------ Now onto the real meat and potatoes of what I have been wanting to discuss- I hope this can convey my thoughts and dreams well. Stemming back a few weeks (and even months) now, I've been facing my own thoughts and self more when reflecting on my life. And as of more recently talking with friends, acquaintances, and strangers alike, on top of my self-reflection and seeing stuff in the world... it all left me to wonder and dream even more. As the new year finally rung on us, with what has happened already, and what has been going on for years now leaves me still worried as usual. I don't want to dwell on it though. I want this year to finally herald new change for the better, starting with myself, until it can grow more and more to better apply to the bigger picture as well. Ever since 2020- and honestly still further beyond that- life has been as tumultuous for me as it has been wonderful. It wasn't as hard as it could have been, but it hasn't been as simple as I was thinking either. I could go on and on but there's no point in doing so. What I aspire for this year is to be able to not only reinforce the communities I care about, but to foster a new one of my own making. One where many people can come together, partaking in communion with one another, even if in the simplest and smallest of ways. Creating new friendships, restoring old ones, sharing art, ideas, dreams, and more with one another, things like all of these and more. What has really driven me and given me life during these long years is not just art, but these meaningful interactions that I have had the pleasure and honor being a part of. And even if to a lesser degree, they still persist to today, no matter how brief they are or spread out they might be. To me, they've been nothing short of miraculous, and something I still cherish. Through my darkest and lowest moments, all of it helped to continue to provide hope and reason for me. Even if it was through sfw art, ecchi art, nsfw art, games, movies, and so on, our shared interests and experiences made many bonds of pure wonder. I'm tired of things in this modern world being so negative and discordant all the time. I wish not only to help kick-start this fellowship community with others, but to also spearhead it too if I may. By being a catalyst. Perhaps by becoming a vtuber, creator, and artist as well... even if I'm the middle of just starting out to learn and helping to develop such a place for people to gather. Are these big aspirations? Maybe. But nonetheless I still yearn to see progress be made, so it can one day see fruition. The prospect of being able to help spread the joy I've received from all you amazing artists and people alike, with you fine folks and many others... while being able to help give an anchor through this community and my action, as we build it together with each other... That is my new dream, and it gives me renewed hope for what the future can hold in store for us. So all I can do is the best I can, and ask with respect and hope that we can walk this path together and build a beginning to a bigger, better, brighter future where we can be even more connected with one another.