longer.blue

5MAY’25 Day 12 i sent you a letter today. it delivers tomorrow. i don’t think you will even read it but man i fucking hope you do. i really need you to. i feel like i’m burdening my friends with this. i don’t wanna keep bringing it up to them, i feel bad for bringing the mood down. i’m trying so hard to fake being happy for them because i need them there to distract me. i love them so much for trying to to help me. i tried to reach out to you again and you instantly blocked me. i know you, i know how you are. you are probably stuck w this guy 24/7 so you don’t have to be alone with your thoughts. how can it be so easy to replace me with some random guy you just met lulu? i don’t even care about that anymore, i don’t understand how you can see me and ignore me so easily.. does it not hurt? how are you doing it so easily? its so unlike you..you’re the sweetest nicest and kindest person anyone could ever meet. how could my lulu ever do this to ANYONE? much less to me..? do i even cross your mind? i miss you so much it hurts to breathe i love you