longer.blue

As a former member of your community, I have a lot of things to say. This will be a long and serious post, so take your time to read everything in this post: I have accepted that I indeed have been obssessed with drawing all four of the party babies' sonas, I mean... drawing fanart of your sonas is ok, but doing it too much is not a good thing, since it can make any of the four of you feel uncomfortable I should have drawn them less frequent and also taken breaks from drawing fanart. I also want to apologize for being a dick, saying your friend always gets mad during a game.. which is not true. Sure, there are moments where he gets frustrated at a game, but he doesn't get mad 24/7. I also know that he is a real life person behind an animal-themed pngtuber, not a cartoon animal. And neither are you and the rest of the party babies. This also applies to every other person who has an animal-themed pngtuber who is not asscociated with the Party Babies. I understand that all of you don't want anything to do with me anymore. What I did wasn't the right thing to do, and I should have continued to do the right thing. But in order to rebuild the trust I have lost, I have to promise myself and show myself that I won't do it again... even while I'm blocked from your discord and banned from your chat. I also want to point out that when I first discovered you back in February in 2024, there was already a false controversy involving a Nintendo-focused youtuber I've been watching since the late 2000s, and it was affecting me a lot. (Thank goodness the drama is over) So to take my mind off of what was going on, I went to find a new streamer I have not watched before.... until I stumbled upon your streams featuring the funny streamer duo (on sunday nights, usually. On thursdays it's the four of you, or three or rarely four on tuesdays.) Your streaming content was right down my alley since I love video games and art as well, but because I didn't listen to your rules and that I broke your boundaries, I cost myself the trust from all of you. This is something that will stick with me for a long time as I get older, and I regret making these mistakes. But despite all this, i'm happy one of you wished me a happy birthday.. not as a parasocial thing, but as a small compliment. And I also wished you and one of your friends a happy birthday as well... but that's because it's important to wish someone a happy birthday, whether someone knows them well or not. But I don't know any of you well..(and you're all real life people who have jobs, despite gaming and having fun playing on stream) and it can be rude if someone didn't wish someone else a happy birthday. And like I said, I'm just a viewer who enjoys videogame and art content, and not only that, I also enjoy the topics you talk about. Such as the pricing of games nowadays costing 80 dollars.. or games being open world.... But.. I have come to my senses that my actions have consequences, and I am learning from these consequences. I have disappointed and failed you all as a viewer. But... as I am facing these consquences, I have been watching the recent streams while banned, and I have been laughing at the funny stuff and cheering at hype moments that happened in them. I'm sorry for all of my actions and I will continue to support your channel, even though I am still not allowed to be let back in your chat and discord. I apologize for breaking your rules, your boundaries and hurting your friend's feelings... but despite that, I have been supporting the LGBTQ+ community the entire time without being transphobic, homophobic, etc. I'd never be like that since I don't take kindly to transphobes and homophobes.... and I also celebrate Pride Month every June... I'm happy to support the LGBTQ+ community and I will keep supporting until the end of time. I had many chances to show myself that I can be trusted in your streaming community, and be a well respective adult... but I didn't listen to myself nor to you. Thank you for having me in the chat and discord for as long as it lasted. None of you deserved to be feeling uncomfortable since you said obsessions are not to be taken kindly... and obsessions can be unhealthy. But I am learning my lesson from these consequences of my actions and improving myself to show myself that I can move on from my mistakes and support the streams, vods and the channel like a well behaved adult. If I had obeyed the rules and had not broken the boundaries, I wouldn't have been banned. But I am responsible for my actions and I have been facing the consequences. I have to do what is right, and not do what is wrong. Because if someone does the latter like I did, it can lead to consequences. So as I stated above, I'm really sorry for breaking the rules, not obeying them and disrespecting your boundaries... Your boundaries and rules are important, and I should have thought of that over the Summer. I'm gonna show myself that I need to continue to respect peoples' boundaries. I apologize for my obsessive behavior, being a dick to your friend and playfully teasing him and saying he's like a cartoon character who gets angry at a game all the time. And he's not a cartoon character.. he's an actual human with real emotions and feelings. In fact, ALL of you are actual humans who have jobs, and love to have fun playing video games together and chat about interesting topics about games. And I promise myself I will never do the wrong thing ever again, despite how many chances I was given... whether i'm out of them, or not. You don't deserve to feel uncomfortable, and I'm sorry for that. It's not right for me to make someone feel uncomfortable, since it's the wrong thing to do.