longer.blue

As a former member of your community, I have a lot of things to say in this apology post. So take your time to read it, and please understand that I'm really sorry for breaking and disobeying your rules. I want to apologize for being a dick, saying your friend always gets mad during a game.. which is not true. Sure, there are moments where he gets frustrated at a game, but he doesn't get mad 24/7. I also know that he is a real life person behind an animal-themed pngtuber, not a cartoon animal. And neither are you and the rest of the party babies. This also applies to every other person who has an animal-themed pngtuber who is not asscociated with the Party Babies. I understand that all of you don't want anything to do with me anymore. What I did wasn't the right thing to do, and I should have continued to do the right thing. But in order to rebuild the trust I have lost, I have to promise myself and show myself that I won't do it again... even while I'm blocked from your discord and banned from your chat. Your streaming content is right down my alley since I love video games and art as well, but because I didn't listen to your rules and that I broke your boundaries. I cost myself the trust from all of you. This is something that will stick with me for a long time as I get older, and I regret making these mistakes. But despite all this, i'm happy one of you wished me a happy birthday, despite us not knowing each other. And I also wished you and one of your friends a happy birthday as well... but that's because it's important to wish someone a happy birthday, whether someone knows them well or not. But I don't know any of you well..(and you're all real life people who have jobs, despite gaming and having fun playing on stream) and it can be rude if someone didn't wish someone else a happy birthday. And like I said, I'm just a viewer who enjoys videogame and art content, and not only that, I also enjoy the topics you talk about. Such as the pricing of games nowadays costing 80 dollars.. or games being open world.... But.. I have come to my senses that my actions have consequences, and I am learning from these consequences. I have disappointed and failed you and your friends as a viewer. But... as I am facing these consquences, I have been watching the recent streams while banned, and I have been laughing at the funny stuff and cheering at hype moments that happened in them. I'm sorry for all of my actions and I will continue to support your channel, even though I am still not allowed to be let back in your chat and discord. I apologize for breaking your rules, your boundaries and hurting your friend's feelings... but despite that, I have been supporting the LGBTQ+ community the entire time without being transphobic, homophobic, etc. I'd never be like that since I don't take kindly to transphobes and homophobes.... and I also celebrate Pride Month every June... I'm happy to support the LGBTQ+ community and I will keep supporting until the end of time. I had many chances to show myself that I can be trusted in your streaming community, and be a well respective adult... but I didn't listen to myself nor to you. Thank you for having me in the chat and discord for as long as it lasted. None of you deserved to be feeling uncomfortable since you said obsessions are not to be taken kindly... and obsessions can be unhealthy. But I am learning my lesson from these consequences of my actions and improving myself to show myself that I can move on from my mistakes and support the streams, vods and the channel like a well behaved adult. If I had obeyed the rules and had not broken the boundaries, I wouldn't have been banned. But I am responsible for my actions and I have been facing the consequences. I have to do what is right, and not do what is wrong. Because if someone does the latter like I did, it can lead to consequences. So as I stated above, I'm really sorry for breaking the rules, not obeying them and disrespecting your boundaries... Your boundaries and rules are important, and I should have thought of that over the Summer. I'm gonna show myself that I need to continue to respect peoples' boundaries. I apologize for my behavior, being a dick to your friend and playfully teasing him and saying he's like a cartoon character who gets angry at a game all the time. And he's not a cartoon character.. he's an actual human with real emotions and feelings. In fact, ALL of you are actual humans who have lives outside of streaming on the internet, which I respect. I promise myself I will never do the wrong thing ever again, despite how many chances I was given... whether i'm out of them, or not. It's not right for me to tease someone I don't know, and I'm sorry for that. So to prevent myself from doing the wrong things, I will do the right things and continue to obey the rules and respect your boundaries as a viewer and continue to watch the streams. But.... to end this post on a lighter note, I just want to say... thank you for the entire month of spooky streams. The streams for October this year have been hilariously scary... and the horror mascot costumes for the pngtubers this year were really scarily funny.. especially the Baldi costume. You and your friends are really funny to watch, and I've been enjoying the recent incentive streams such as the Bart-ending stream and the Blinding of Issac stream. And the topics you talk about (Such as shows like "911" and "Pluribus") make it feel like i'm listening to a podcast while you and your friends play video games. I also appreciate the effort of your mods to make sure nobody in the chat breaks the rules. And like I said... you and the rest of the party babiez are my favorite streamers. I hope you have a great thanksgiving.