longer.blue

21MAY’25 Day 28 i keep hearing about my friends’ relationship problems and all i can think about is how magic we were. we were so good together. i know you spent most of this evening/night w the guy. lukas mayr. i even know where he lives. but you wants me to be peaceful and i can’t stand the thought of intentionally hurting you so there’s nothing i can do. i sold a bunch of my stuff today. sold them cheap as hell as i can’t be asked and i just want to liquidate as much stuff as i can before i go. todays feels like the first day of the end. its becoming real as hell. i’m worried as hell that i won’t be able to talk to you before i go and/or get my package delivered to you. i’m scared lulu. i miss you so bad. it hurts to breathe. i love you. goodnight.