longer.blue

read this if you're willing to. ---------------------------------- i've seen a friend of mine, whom i met at primary school in my dreams. and she wasn't welcoming me, she was staring at me. i was asking myself: "why did she do that?" and she told me: "Q., i know your secrets and i'm going to reveal this to everyone you know." she was just joking, right? right? when i was at school (in my dreams), she appeared again, but this time she was talking to a friend of mine about my secrets. and that friend never talked to me again. everyone in my class now knows my secrets. they kept gossiping to each other, and no one would talk to me. i feel... abandoned. i don't know what did she tell my classmates. i don't want to know what did she tell. NEVER. we were best friends and she decided to backstab me. i feel ANGRY. i feel FURIOUS. but there was nothing i can do. the secret spread to other classes and even the teachers have heard of it. what should i do? what should i do? why... am i still here? i found out about the secret when dream-me graduated from the hell that is the school. SHE TOLD EVERYONE... that i am a FRAUD. i lie to people all the time. i would never keep my promises. it isn't true. it isn't true. it isn't true. it isn't true. it. ISN'T. TRUE! and thus, i never talked with anyone from this hellish middle school. --------------------------------------------------- NOTE: i'm actually doing well irl, i just had a nightmare that i thought would be worth sharing. ik this is a reality for some people, so i hope you can recover from what's going on. i love you and i hope you have a nice day muah muah <3 - Dophanie (q.)