longer.blue

2MAY'25 DAY 9 i realized today you still see me, but you won’t answer me..do i really mean this little to you this quickly? i wonder what you feel and think when i cross your mind.. it must be so fucking ugly if you ignore me so fucking easily… i know i’m not perfect but i don’t deserve this… no one deserves this.. you are treating me like i’m your worst enemy like i’m going to ruin your life by just talking to me… i don’t understand…why are you being so cruel to me? how can i not even get a reply, a message, anything….. my dreams are so fucking cruel… i keep dreaming you called me and texted me and i get so fucking happy and excited that i wake up to check but it’s always a dream… funnily enough i got a call while i was asleep from australia..but in my sleepiness i thought it was from austria and got so happy and picked up and heard a woman’s voice..the way my heart broke when it was a spam caller…lol… life is such a struggle.. i can’t breathe.. i’m in so much pain… i miss you so much…. i love you forever and always goodnight