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-Updated April 11th- due to my point proven on how few people cared when I tried to speak about all this myself (as well as another similar incident involving verrymay.has.tattoos.fyi who) compared to being far more interested in hearing what other accounts with thousands of followers who it DIDN'T happen to had to say (with my situation which was in ways what started Garrett showing his true colors getting swept under the rug vs the other things he did) I'll be deleting my Bluesky permanently tonight. Not because of Garrett this time but my "friends" who let me down one too many times, the same people who told me it was ok to open up just to bail when I did. So to those in question, don't point fingers at him for making me leave this time. Look in the mirror and for the record to each person who's talked about the situation as him targeting "someone's" mental health but excluded who from the discussion? That someone's has a name. Masquemare. Anyways on to the post. First and foremost I'm going to give appreciation where it's due. Thanks to one of my best friends relaying things to me while I've been gone from Bluesky, I've seen the kind words and well wishes from those who count regarding all this bullshit with Garrett that's happened the past few days, things that started WITH me and only snowballed from there to a lot of worse stuff (which at least was exposed), and I appreciate it. But that being said, to those following me? People I had thought were friends before? I tried to warn all of you, because it's just like I said in my final post before I left. That the truth was going to come out. And who called it? Just as I also told myself someone was likely gonna go back and tell him what I said since I had him blocked already (thanks for setting off my trap card btw because that's what I WANTED). And also if I sound pissed its because I am. No one much cared what I had to say, not even so much as a DM to reach out, but now people are talking about it after more popular pages have spoke about it? Funny how I also did a post about needing to be more popular for people to care what I had to say, but moving on. Anyways, the first longer post was me flushing a piece of shit but this is one of those times it came back up instead of going into the sewer where it belonged. That said I'M the primary reason for Garrett's crashout and I'm going to have my say. And just know that I likely won't be staying on Bluesky this time either because again I'm EXTREMELY grateful to those who've reached out through my best friend wishing me well but it really sucks how many people I trusted fell silent when this happened to me (note: and continued to after I posted this) It shouldn't of came to a fucking “Rorschach's journal” scenario where people only heard my words after I was gone and the damage had been done. People I trusted. I spoke out in the longer blue post on Garrett coming at me with his unsolicited “support”, which in itself came after I deleted all of my posts on here due to both wanting to try and start fresh and just feeling tired of getting treated like an outcast by people due to times I vented, so I simply scorched earthed everything to make sure I didn't miss anything where I was open on my mental health (while at least keeping all the reposts of others because I didn't want to do that to those I tried to get more eyes on if I could) How he didn't let me just walk away when I said I was done talking and instead tried to “get real” with me. How he got hostile after I got fed up with (among other crap he said) his “get out of your head” and “therapy worked for me” comments, both as well as the resulting fallout that's included all his talk of “no place for victim mentality and babies” being VERY hypocritical given his behavior ever since where he's done SO much of the shit he's tried to claim that I do and worse that's shattered that “safe space” mask he's worn. Yea I've had lots of bad brain days on here, it comes with clinical depression, a generalized anxiety disorder, and other conditions plus everything I'm dealing with atm but NOTHING like what he's done, plus there's a massive difference between venting (with it recently being because I just wanted my friends to be more supportive) and just being a hateful bastard. Again moving on. I also spoke out more in depth on my current situation that I'm dealing with everyday that I can't just “let go” of involving my living and financial ordeal and a VERY real chance of me ending up homeless in a few years which I'm doing the best I can with regarding livestreaming given the cards I've been dealt. I don't like talking about it much but wanted to put it out there knowing he'd eventually see it so that it could be known exactly what it was he was trying to tell me to “get out of my head” about since he didn't have the updated patch notes on my fucking personal life (not that it was his or anyone's business unless I wanted it more known other than what I've said in a couple blogs on my website, but I digress). That's contrary to him continuously trying to put a narrative out there (even after the post where I explained my situation got back to him) that I'm not trying to “make moves to better myself” (more on that below) instead of owning the fuck up like a mature ass adult and apologizing that he jumped onto a post and ran his mouth (again, contradictory to his comment on one of his post about “minding ya fucking business”) without knowing the extent of what someone is going through, that he didn't DM things to me in the first place. So the reasons I left Bluesky after the conversation me and him had? It's because of me again trying to step away from the situation (as well as someone else who lost my friendship by liking everything he said to me, including his post after I deactivated where he spoke of me by name with his ass backwards attempt at acting sincere). My reason for coming back and doing the first longer blue post was due to him posting about me (as well as comments he said to someone else about my therapist being fake) and me calling him out because again I TRIED to walk away not to mention him trying to involve a friend (who was having a medical issue btw). I left because again, people I considered friends on here let me down one too many times. But now I'm back this time to make it very known that my reasons for leaving haven't been fear of a tea cup chihuahua always barking behind a screen door acting like he can take anyone on in a fight (again like he said on my Discord that he would do to my problematic neighbors by breaking their door down and kicking their asses, which thank god the trash took itself out when he left my server on his own before all this escalated) but would run with his tail between his legs the moment you stomp your foot at him. Who it's appropriate he says his fave legendary Pokemon is Raikou because the time it takes a lightning bolt to strike is likely about the same as he could last with a bagel (aka the only action someone like him could probably get) <---- getting in on the Pokemon jokes that have made the rounds. THAT ^ is another reason why I left, not fear of him but fear of people seeing how cruel I can be when someone pisses me off and even all this is me holding back. Let's not forget who the hell it was not long ago that not only called someone out who was going around Bluesky telling minors that he hoped their dog died and to alt-f4 (as well as dropping the hard r word and homophobic slurs while calling women bitches) and put a target on his own back in hopes it would keep others from getting targeted by that person, but who it was that played part in running them off Bluesky altogether after he pushed back. I'm talking about Kairan btw. Let me say this loud and clear enough for the people in the back. That narcissistic sociopathic former wad of sperm cells who should've been shot into a napkin the day he was conceived (taking your line, "yea I said that and I'll say it again") that I'm referring to here does NOT dictate who I am. Me however saying who HE is? Garrett (yea talking directly to you now) you wanted to try to gaslight me? Well here's a god damn inferno (and an early birthday present I'm treating myself to before my actual cake day tomorrow). Some easy hate to counter your "tough love" With how short you've come up in everything I'm starting to think you're the long lost fourth member of the fucking Lollipop Guild that they didn't want representing them, but I guess there's room for that stick to get a lot shorter. You tried to say I'm not taking steps to better myself? I'm thankful that the worst anyone in my life today has seen of me is a lot better than that person I was that I'm glad they'll never see (assuming they didn't before). Years ago I was self harming every fucking day for years, almost committed suicide nine times, safe to say was much worse off than what I am today. But I learned my own means of “therapy” that while not perfect it's still helped me be better hence why I didn't need your little Dr. Phil of Shit talk and go fuck yourself (assuming even your own hand wants to put a ring on it there Beyonce) if you want to say THAT is fake because again who the fuck are you to speak for who I am when your own therapy you gloated about ain't shit obviously and who are you to even if that wasn't the case? Hell you can't even speak for yourself given you've been so lost in your own stories and lies you've been caught in over the past few days that even Roronoa Zoro has a better sense of direction blindfolded. I also almost did myself in after that mass group (yea this story's been told on my website and I'll tell it again) mob cyberharassed me within my first year of livestreaming when I had a growing community, was close to being a partnered streamer, so on. They spread lies and rumors and as a result I lost almost everything. By all means it was too easy to just give up. But instead I got back up and even though its taken years of busting my ass with all the odds (and LOTS of trauma) against me I've rebuilt at least some of what was taken from me and against all the people saying I'd never be a partnered streamer? I became a YouTube partner last October and every day that I go live (and contrary to you saying I want people to blindly follow me with no interaction though I admit I may not be the best at interaction on Bluesky most of the time) EVERY time I go live I'm talking to my viewers and being unapologeticly myself, showing that I DESERVE that partnership compared to Mr. Sociopathic safe space who has had to pretend to be what he's not just for anything other than a mannequin to not walk away from him (yea I know, I've talked about people waking away from me but at least I do have those friends who HAVE accepted me for me who I am without me having to put up a front just to be liked by decent people)