longer.blue

Thinking about how when I first transistioned as a trans man I was such a little shit. I was closeted stealth and incredibly mysogynistic and bioessentialist. I said edgy slurs and had 4chan chud racist humor. I wanted power and to fit in with other men. I escaped an opressed class and all too easily became an opressor. I think I finally snapped out of it when covid hit during college. Just seeing so many people die and what was happening in hospitals while none of our buisness centers shut down in order to keep capitalism up and running. (Played disco elysium too that helped make me full commie LOL). But genuinely I feel terrible for all of the awful things I said back then that pushed others away. I hope to be able to grow up more and never repeat that. It is so incredibly miserable that conservatives have weaponized humor to intice and sell alt-right ideologies. That they push for "no censorship" not of the nude human form and adult artwork, but to say slurs and racist shit. Sucks.