longer.blue

10MAY'25 DAY 17 "lulu i can accept you replacing me and doing things you promised you never would. ive figured evrything out and it hurts so bad but thats nothing compared to you blocking me and throwing me away after i figure it out. i want you to be happy at the end of the day no matter what but all i ask is for you to just talk to me. no judgement, no anger, nothing. i just want to be able to talk and be honest with each other. theres just some stuff i have left that i want to say to you. please dont throw me away for some guy you just met lulu. i just want you to not be a ghost in my life. can you please just give me this? i really fucking need it, i cant function like this. im on my literal knees begging for my life. please." i sent you this message today. i watched on as you read it and blocked me. damn. you must really hate me at this point. funnily enough, im not even sad? im kinda just..numb? im not sure what it is im feeling. almost relief? it feels like yeah this is the end. ours and mine. atleast i know what to do now? i think im not gonna try and contact you.. as much now. gotta start preparing ig. nonethless, i wish i could say i hate you, that im mad, but nah. how can i be? you will always be the most imporant person in my life. ill always just want the best for you. i love you, forever and always nini