longer.blue

17MAY’25 Day 24 today started out so fucking rough. these dreams are killing me. i couldn’t even get out of bed to get my pills until 2pm. the xanax really calmed me down but they’re starting to take longer to work and are already not lasting as long. i tried really hard to reach out to you today but the same old yeah. today was the eurovision finals. remember how we spend last years eurovision together at your place? we stayed up late every night watching a brand new movie every night. we watched the entire eurovision thing and even did the voting and we were so happy our pick nemo won. we made out and had so much fun on that couch. i miss that. our memories are so precious to me but they hurt so bad at the same time. i wish you would have chosen to spend this time with me. but it’s okay.. i hope you are safe and having fun too. i spent the night with friends we watch partied eurovision and did the votes and everything. it was fun and helped a bit to distract my grief even tho so much reminded me of you. i hope you’re sleeping well i hope tomorrow will be better for me but i know it won’t be i love you to death goodnight baby